Another night and again cant get no sleep. Had a day off 2day. spend in bed... waked up about 1. weather  was really bad. rain. So like every day I started 2 cry and I went sleep again... On evening I meet with Moni. She made mu nails. On my way back home I stopped 4 a sec on 8 stimpson avenue. was dark at home... dunno why I dunn it... just wanted 2 c ur shadow... Decided 2day 2care about myself. Wanna get myself beautifull b4 day when Im gonna c u again is coming and b ready when u come back, I believe that soon we booth wouldnt wait any more. Im missing u so much my Bb. Ur skin, smell, I want u 2 touching my bode, kissing my lips... 2mora gonna b one week when I feel u last time... cant wait 4 this moment... and u know im not gonna let u go again. on this time im gonna protected protected ur relationship more than anythink else in my life. Becouse I know that we mean 2 b 2gether... I feel this... just hope that u care about urself. U need 2 put sum weigh on, u know that :). And hope u gunna write new song. cant wait 2 listen it. know u thinking different but id love when u singing. Know that 4u this time is also really hard. But I promise u my bb in new year we gonna wish each other all the best and u gonna kiss my lips like b4 and again we gonna leav : me 4 u and u 4 me. lov ya like mad!